An understanding and submission

As I round out my last year of my undergraduate (thanks to my first advisor, I have had to take 13 credit hours on an extra summer after my graduation), I wonder if this is really what I am supposed to be doing.

At the end of July, I will receive a diploma for a Bachelor of Music in Composition, cum laude or magna cum laude, I don't know which one yet (I really haven't taken the time to find out which). What in the world am I going to do with that right now? I have been forced to fervently search for a typical blue collar job, that I will probably ultimately hate. I could continue my education (which is the plan right now) but I need a some source of income to continue my living situation and pay for school. I'm trying my hardest to not be swimming in a olympic regulated pool of the thickest vanilla flavored student loan pudding.

So Calvin gives me a huge understanding, and it does not just pertain to math. Everything you learn in your educational career have to be accepted on faith. It practically is a religion. I have seen it countless times, and have done it myself, how in the last minutes of studying we start praying to whatever "Test God" so that we might be able to survive the horrible ordeal. I'm not stated that I will, or have the luxury to, be any type of religious educational atheist. But in my last summer of being an undergraduate, I am encompassing the same feelings as Calvin. Who cares on how it happens, and a lot of times the things I learn seem to appear through some strange miracle.

I'm done with such trival things as how Jonathan Swift wrote for the Irish or how the Harlem Renaissance affects my life today. I'm done with General Education. I have been at it for 18 years. Thats plenty enough time for me. I'm ready to move onto bigger and more focused areas of training towards my professional life.

But for now, I must submit, because you really can't do much without a college education these days. So again, I wonder, is this what I am supposed to be doing? Is there some greater objective that I should be focusing on.

Only time will tell...